what do i hope to gain
from this world of pain?
when all i ever needed
comes from you, o Lord.
what rainbow do [i] chase?
in some vain hope to trace
material treasures of a
temporal nature...
- also no idea when i wrote this... more than 5 years ago...
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
from long long ago 6
autumn wind
blowing...
fresh upon my face
through my hair
everywhere...
her fingers
gently
tugging on the leaves
like strings
of my heart
fluttering
floating
falling
whirling round and round...
she flows everywhere
no obstacles
filling every void
swirling in and out
teasing the tree tops
bring the showers
raining in my soul...
- sometime after cheryl...
blowing...
fresh upon my face
through my hair
everywhere...
her fingers
gently
tugging on the leaves
like strings
of my heart
fluttering
floating
falling
whirling round and round...
she flows everywhere
no obstacles
filling every void
swirling in and out
teasing the tree tops
bring the showers
raining in my soul...
- sometime after cheryl...
from long long ago 5
mystic eyes are watching you
in the darkness of the night,
follow your every move
see right through your mind;
your home seems strange, no place to go,
you've got no place to hide;
the mask you wear for the world out there,
your fear and pain dont hide.
the thick black veil is blinding you,
like so many that have gone before
it's not your physic that cant see,
but the eyes of your soul.
it comes to you, a still small voice,
through the turmoil and the noise;
offering what you have been
looking for all your life.
so lift the veil, break down the ties
that bind you up in sin;
[surrender to that still small voice,
and let the peace begin]
- no idea when i wrote this, and it stops just before the last 2 lines....
in the darkness of the night,
follow your every move
see right through your mind;
your home seems strange, no place to go,
you've got no place to hide;
the mask you wear for the world out there,
your fear and pain dont hide.
the thick black veil is blinding you,
like so many that have gone before
it's not your physic that cant see,
but the eyes of your soul.
it comes to you, a still small voice,
through the turmoil and the noise;
offering what you have been
looking for all your life.
so lift the veil, break down the ties
that bind you up in sin;
[surrender to that still small voice,
and let the peace begin]
- no idea when i wrote this, and it stops just before the last 2 lines....
from long long ago 4
was at the railway station this morning,
met a farsighted, shortsighted man;
said he had a longsighted, nearsighted daugther,
she never made any plans,
just lived her life for today;
don't know what tomorrow brings,
yeah, she don't care what tomorrow brings.
- have no idea when.
*shrugs* dont look at me, man... i have no idea what i was thinking at that time...
met a farsighted, shortsighted man;
said he had a longsighted, nearsighted daugther,
she never made any plans,
just lived her life for today;
don't know what tomorrow brings,
yeah, she don't care what tomorrow brings.
- have no idea when.
*shrugs* dont look at me, man... i have no idea what i was thinking at that time...
from long long ago 3
i need a woman
as delicate as
a spider web,
feelings
thoughts
flowing emotions
so fragile
yet so strong,
intricately woven
i need a woman
soft and gentle
her ways
but firm
her faith and trust;
secure
confident
in God's abundant
grace
i need a woman
who
sings away her
blues,
hope
in God's provision,
despairing not
praying constantly
i need a woman
to be there when
i'm sad or down,
support and strength
unseen
only felt and
known
i need a woman
someone to
impress
to tease
to please,
to laugh with
i need a woman
to know
familiar with her ways
her eyes
her mouth
her face,
her shoulders
posture
grace;
how clear and
loud
they speak
messages
without words
i need a woman
to hug
to kiss
embrace,
in times both
good and
bad,
together
always
in spirit
if not in
flesh
i need a woman
to confide in
my plans
my dreams
my hopes,
my thoughts
and hers
no longer mine
but ours
i need a woman
who needs me
the same i do of her,
not just to have and
hold
but to belong to;
that's why darling,
i need you.
- sometime after i met cheryl ;P
as delicate as
a spider web,
feelings
thoughts
flowing emotions
so fragile
yet so strong,
intricately woven
i need a woman
soft and gentle
her ways
but firm
her faith and trust;
secure
confident
in God's abundant
grace
i need a woman
who
sings away her
blues,
hope
in God's provision,
despairing not
praying constantly
i need a woman
to be there when
i'm sad or down,
support and strength
unseen
only felt and
known
i need a woman
someone to
impress
to tease
to please,
to laugh with
i need a woman
to know
familiar with her ways
her eyes
her mouth
her face,
her shoulders
posture
grace;
how clear and
loud
they speak
messages
without words
i need a woman
to hug
to kiss
embrace,
in times both
good and
bad,
together
always
in spirit
if not in
flesh
i need a woman
to confide in
my plans
my dreams
my hopes,
my thoughts
and hers
no longer mine
but ours
i need a woman
who needs me
the same i do of her,
not just to have and
hold
but to belong to;
that's why darling,
i need you.
- sometime after i met cheryl ;P
from long long ago 2
God's word on my lips, wherever i go,
'cos that's the only way, and it's gotta be so;
meditating in my [mind] both day and night,
keep it in [my] heart cos it's only right.
just like God said to joshua, "i will always be with you,
be strong and courageous, i will carry you through,
just be careful to obey the law, not to the left or to the right"
meditating on His word, everyday and everynight.
when troubles encompass me, press me in on every side;
when i really feel the pressure, seems like i've got [no] place else to hide;
all i do is turn my eyes and look to God above,
cos i know He's always [looking down in love].
- sometime 1995-2000
'cos that's the only way, and it's gotta be so;
meditating in my [mind] both day and night,
keep it in [my] heart cos it's only right.
just like God said to joshua, "i will always be with you,
be strong and courageous, i will carry you through,
just be careful to obey the law, not to the left or to the right"
meditating on His word, everyday and everynight.
when troubles encompass me, press me in on every side;
when i really feel the pressure, seems like i've got [no] place else to hide;
all i do is turn my eyes and look to God above,
cos i know He's always [looking down in love].
- sometime 1995-2000
from long long ago...
so here we are clearing out our old house and i'm going through my drawer... and find a whole bunch of stuff written long long ago. Some are scribbled on parking tickets, others on the back of Bible study questions and envelopes. Many are unfinished (the reason why i do not rest now until i complete a piece), some have faded so i can only guess what the words say. So, in the next few posts, i'll be putting down stuff i wrote many years ago... here goes...
it's closing time, everybody's going home;
look around you... are you the only one
who's feeling all alone?
cashiers ring the last charge of the day;
people packing up, they're all going away.
dj's on the p.a. saying, "have a safe trip
home, hope that you'll be back again tomorrow"
shops close. the lights go out as
the last car pulls away.
close your eyes and try to
bring back memories of yesterday.
you were just a kid,
all you had to do was play;
why is it that now things have
turned out this way?
could it be something you did?
what was it you said?
are you the only one in pain
with zombies in your head?
the pangs of [hunger stab you like a]
switchblade in your side;
seems nothing compared to the
weariness of your soul.
the question comes again and again,
why me? where did i go wrong?
is there nothing that can
save me from this darkness
[all around?]
it holds you tight, it enters
you, from each and every side;
you cannot run, you cannot scream,
you've got no place to hide.
it rakes it's sharp and awful claws
into your tender skull;
your flesh gives fight alas in vain;
can hardly feel the pain.
crash of thunder, pound of drums,
your blood begins to boil;
the demons in your head tell you,
"your time is up, farewell".
fall on your knees before the darkness
consumes your soul; and say,
with one last final fleeting breath,
the prayer you meant to say
so very long ago.
- sometime between 1990-1998
what can i say? my memory sucks...
it's closing time, everybody's going home;
look around you... are you the only one
who's feeling all alone?
cashiers ring the last charge of the day;
people packing up, they're all going away.
dj's on the p.a. saying, "have a safe trip
home, hope that you'll be back again tomorrow"
shops close. the lights go out as
the last car pulls away.
close your eyes and try to
bring back memories of yesterday.
you were just a kid,
all you had to do was play;
why is it that now things have
turned out this way?
could it be something you did?
what was it you said?
are you the only one in pain
with zombies in your head?
the pangs of [hunger stab you like a]
switchblade in your side;
seems nothing compared to the
weariness of your soul.
the question comes again and again,
why me? where did i go wrong?
is there nothing that can
save me from this darkness
[all around?]
it holds you tight, it enters
you, from each and every side;
you cannot run, you cannot scream,
you've got no place to hide.
it rakes it's sharp and awful claws
into your tender skull;
your flesh gives fight alas in vain;
can hardly feel the pain.
crash of thunder, pound of drums,
your blood begins to boil;
the demons in your head tell you,
"your time is up, farewell".
fall on your knees before the darkness
consumes your soul; and say,
with one last final fleeting breath,
the prayer you meant to say
so very long ago.
- sometime between 1990-1998
what can i say? my memory sucks...
Thursday, January 26, 2006
but the sun comes shining thru
don't close your eyes, it
won't stop the nagging feeling
you have deep down inside;
your problems won't go away
if you can't see them.
fairy tales and make believe,
don't take you from this mess
you've got yourself into;
sink or swim, you're going down;
no other way around.
you ventured too far
out on the limb this time;
and every wrong bears con-
sequences you have to face;
like it or not.
swallow the bitter
pill of life's mistakes,
and take a look around;
we all have a price to pay
for where we are today.
and when you think that
you've come to the end,
and hit the wall of brick;
blurry gaze and stoned dull mind;
there is still time to pray.
and the sun comes shining thru,
when all is lost, it's not...
- Jan 27, 06
won't stop the nagging feeling
you have deep down inside;
your problems won't go away
if you can't see them.
fairy tales and make believe,
don't take you from this mess
you've got yourself into;
sink or swim, you're going down;
no other way around.
you ventured too far
out on the limb this time;
and every wrong bears con-
sequences you have to face;
like it or not.
swallow the bitter
pill of life's mistakes,
and take a look around;
we all have a price to pay
for where we are today.
and when you think that
you've come to the end,
and hit the wall of brick;
blurry gaze and stoned dull mind;
there is still time to pray.
and the sun comes shining thru,
when all is lost, it's not...
- Jan 27, 06
you gotta let it show
sometimes i wonder,
how much i really mean to you;
(you say you love me)
but i see all your promises
lying broken on the floor;
[chorus]
if you love me
you've gotta let it show,
you've gotta let it show
best way to let me know,
cos words tell of intentions
that may be noble and true,
but if you truly love me
your deeds will let it show.
maybe you're really doing
the very best you can,
(i'll always try to justify)
i make up excuses for you
as often as i can;
people say that actions
speak much louder than words can,
(i'm straining my ears now baby)
no matter what your actions say
i will still hold your hand;
it hurts somewhere inside
whenever i think of you;
(i guess it must be love)
you give me so much joy
but pain and anguish too;
- Jan 25, 06
how much i really mean to you;
(you say you love me)
but i see all your promises
lying broken on the floor;
[chorus]
if you love me
you've gotta let it show,
you've gotta let it show
best way to let me know,
cos words tell of intentions
that may be noble and true,
but if you truly love me
your deeds will let it show.
maybe you're really doing
the very best you can,
(i'll always try to justify)
i make up excuses for you
as often as i can;
people say that actions
speak much louder than words can,
(i'm straining my ears now baby)
no matter what your actions say
i will still hold your hand;
it hurts somewhere inside
whenever i think of you;
(i guess it must be love)
you give me so much joy
but pain and anguish too;
- Jan 25, 06
i ask myself
how could i have loved you?
could it have been the way you looked at me?
the soft sweet words you spoke,
the way you made me laugh,
and knew just when to hold my hand?
why did i give myself to you?
was it the way you made me feel
when you'd call and talk for hours?
or when you ran your fingers across my face,
and kiss my lips and hold me close?
how did i put my faith in you?
and tell myself that you're the one;
the one i'd search for all those years,
to share my life and build my dreams
around a future we would share.
why is it that now i find myself alone at night,
wishing someone were by my side?
someone i could love with all my heart,
and give my all and place my trust
in; someone who'd help me
pick up the pieces of my shattered life and
broken dreams;
someone to share a future with...
and then i ask myself,
what if that someone were...
just like you?
- jan 10, 06
could it have been the way you looked at me?
the soft sweet words you spoke,
the way you made me laugh,
and knew just when to hold my hand?
why did i give myself to you?
was it the way you made me feel
when you'd call and talk for hours?
or when you ran your fingers across my face,
and kiss my lips and hold me close?
how did i put my faith in you?
and tell myself that you're the one;
the one i'd search for all those years,
to share my life and build my dreams
around a future we would share.
why is it that now i find myself alone at night,
wishing someone were by my side?
someone i could love with all my heart,
and give my all and place my trust
in; someone who'd help me
pick up the pieces of my shattered life and
broken dreams;
someone to share a future with...
and then i ask myself,
what if that someone were...
just like you?
- jan 10, 06
i can't tell you
when i look into your eyes
your innocent brown eyes
and see that smile upon your face
to watch you talk and hear you laugh
my heart just breaks to pieces cos i know so much of what you don't
and i know your perfect world
will come crashing down upon your soul
and i wanna take you in my arms
and keep you far away from all the harm
and hurt and pain he's gonna cause you
cos you've built your dreams and hopes around
this man who's gonna let you down
but you don't know it yet
the things i know and yet
i cant tell you
you keep making up excuses
for the way he's treating you
you say that he means well
and only time and love will tell
but no man should treat his lady like the way he's treating you
and the honey you have tasted
from his lying lips has spiked you
and you can't see clearly from
the web that he has spun
around your heart and mind
don't you know, that girl he's just using
you to fulfil his lust and cravings
and when he's done he'll drop you
like a rag doll in the mud
cos i wanna take you in my arms
and keep you far away from all the harm
and hurt and pain he's gonna cause you
cos you've built your dreams and hopes around
this man who's gonna let you down
but you don't know it yet
the things i know and yet
i cant tell you
- dec, 06
your innocent brown eyes
and see that smile upon your face
to watch you talk and hear you laugh
my heart just breaks to pieces cos i know so much of what you don't
and i know your perfect world
will come crashing down upon your soul
and i wanna take you in my arms
and keep you far away from all the harm
and hurt and pain he's gonna cause you
cos you've built your dreams and hopes around
this man who's gonna let you down
but you don't know it yet
the things i know and yet
i cant tell you
you keep making up excuses
for the way he's treating you
you say that he means well
and only time and love will tell
but no man should treat his lady like the way he's treating you
and the honey you have tasted
from his lying lips has spiked you
and you can't see clearly from
the web that he has spun
around your heart and mind
don't you know, that girl he's just using
you to fulfil his lust and cravings
and when he's done he'll drop you
like a rag doll in the mud
cos i wanna take you in my arms
and keep you far away from all the harm
and hurt and pain he's gonna cause you
cos you've built your dreams and hopes around
this man who's gonna let you down
but you don't know it yet
the things i know and yet
i cant tell you
- dec, 06
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