Eulogy

I'm at Betsy's dad's funeral now. Really touched by what she shared. I wonder what people will remember me for when I go. What legacy will I leave behind? How many lives would I have touched? Indeed we are but like vapor...

The dream vs reality

Here we stand, here we are

With all our wounds and battle scars

From all the storms and all the wars we’ve weathered alone

We had no way of knowing when

We started way back there and then

How the road would twist and turn and bend

We just thought we belonged with each other

And if it wasn’t for God’s mercy and His grace

There’s no way we would be standing in this place

But even though He has been faithful

Every step along the way

Here we are but not together

There'll be no climbing mountains ever

Since the hopes are dashed and so are plans

And if you won't reach out and hold my hand

We'll never watch miracles unfold forever

And never get to crawl on hands and knees

Through valleys cold and dark and deep

To prove that we were meant to live our lives together

And if it wasn’t for God’s mercy and His grace

There’s no way we would be standing in this place

But even though He has been faithful

Every step along the way

Here we are but not together

And if it wasn’t for God’s mercy and His grace

There’s no way we would be standing in this place

But because He has been faithful

Every step along the way

All I long for is for us to be together

I hurt therefore I am...

Heartache is a very real pain. I do not understand how the emotional can affect the physical in such a way. Nor do I have any scientific evidence to proof it. A tightening of the chest, you take a deep breath and hope it goes away but there is a dull ache just where you imagine your heart is...